keep tryin no matter wot

   Step by step the journey goes on, Little by little it may seem so long. Forget about da past, I can't change it, Forget about my future, I cant predict it. Just think about present as i can handle it. If allah u do excist,plz may my wish come ture.i jst want my happiness,thats all i want plz.im nt being greedy am i?

    thank u,i thank u heaps mum.u always here 4me wen i need u.jst like 2nite,i spoke 2u on da ph.u told me no matter wot happen 2me,ill always hv ur supports.u gave me power 2flight wf my pain.on da otherhand i wanna say sorry,i knw uve been worrried about me,worried about my future,my marriage n so on,bt im old enough,nt a little girl anymore,jst trust me on ths.i knw wot im doin.jst give me abit more time 2slove ths problem,then ill be ready 4 it.anyway luv ya mum always!

    he askd me wot da fuck i want frm him,wot a gud simple question.all i want is be there 4me wenever i need u.showin me da actions of hw much u care about me instead of sayin u miss me tons or wanna see me badly.its all bullshit wen u cant show me da actions as i can say da same thgs n easy enough 2 do nthg 2 prove it.

    im sure that u know ive been serious wif u n ths realtionship,so dont u be an asshole sayin that ive changed or im makin fun of u or sum other shit as i do deserve better than ths.also i hate it wen u say im selfish,u knw ur da only 1 cant say that.coz of u ive done so much.u knw i thought u could be my future half,bt after u gne bk home,i see thgs clearly.u nv email,call.remmeber even i askd u 2meet online few times,u nv turnd up.i dont think u love me that much,nt that i can see it or feel it.im nt smart,nt smart like u said that im,bt im nt a fool n im a woman.i can feel it if u love me heaps.its ok,we cant see eachother anyway,da pain will go away soon,very soon.

   been thinkin about it heaps,fianlly ive come up wif a soultion 4it.thats givin it up,maybe i should hv said jst let it go or sth aye.life is 2short 2be unhappy.normally im da postive one around my fs,i shouldnt let them down.hopefully i will hv a gud holiday,i need it.jst wanna enjoy myself,4get about da past,start ov again.nthg 2be scared off,ths is me-xian yi.come on bring it on,im strong enough on my own,nthg can break me apart.

     havent been on here for ages since ali n i borke up aye.i had really hard time,lucky i gt throu it,nw there is another one comin.im tellin myself hw strong i should be n stay clam n be postive.i even went to get pissd n dance 2nite,jst tried 2 get rid of da pain that im havin rite nw.actaully im actin normal,no one can tell that im upsad or anythg(maybe sum of them could),bt im really hurt n feelin like a fool.i knew wot it was comin,bt i chose2 nt believe it n kept on goin.its my own falut i suppose,bt ths isnt fair,ive been workin v hard on ths n..i should deverse mre.well life is nv fair anyway,maybe i should jst mve on,4get about it.find myself a better guy.yep ur rite tom,im 2naive.ive learnt a lesson though.ill nv go n easily trust sum1 aye.omg,i so dont u 2see ths,im feelin embarrassd aye.anyway writin it does make me feel better,so i dont care if any of u guys see it.hopefully i will hv a better story 2share wen i cum on write nx time aye.

         

 do u see how much i need u rite now?da thgs i do,it reminds me of u,wen u gone,da word i need to hear...i make it ok,i miss u,we will wif be for each other,wen u gone,da pieces in my heart,im missin u!

  Loving this song aye,it's beatiful,it's just tellin how i feel rite now,missing sum1 isnt that gud,it's like sumthg in ur heart,hurting u heaps heaps.it's just hard to...well i guess im okey wif ot u,but it would be better wif u.